So today bored outta my mind I had time to think.. think alot actually. I realized I have ZERO life sadly. I’m jus gonna go through the things in life that I have realized suck in my life and make it so shitty.
- I suck at grammar. I can’t complete 1 sentence without misspelling a word or not putting a comma somewhere or something like that.
- I have no common sense anymore the easiest things in life are far harder for me now then they really should be.
- I do not remember anything I learned in highschool at all.. which I regret horribly cause now I have to stick with suckie minimum wage jobs that help me get nowhere in life at all or where I want to go in life.
- Im losing or have lost all my friends. which really sucks cause my biggest fear in life is happening (being alone)
- I’m pretty sure I am the only 20 year old in SC who has no car or license (for whoever reads this I have never told anyone that other then my closes friends).
- I constantly feel like a 15 year old stuck in a 20 year olds body cause I rely on people every single day of my life just to live my life.
- If it wasnt for the people in my life Id have no clue what to do or where to begin.
- When it comes to girls I let the ones who care bout me the most go and work my ass for girls who arent interested or eventually screw me over.
- I have many many walls that need to be knocked down.
- I have no USEFUL skills that I need in life.
- I have no clue who I am anymore and havent for years cause Ive changed so much just to make friends and fit in that I dont know if I’m “me” or just a clone of everyone else.
- I make alot of bad choices in life.
- Ive screwed over alot of good people in my past and have said alot of messed up stuff to people that Id like to say im sorry to but dont know if any of them will accept a apology.
- I dont know how to keep a conversation going at all (unless im a good mood)
- Not only can I not write correctly but I dont even know how to talk correctly. My friends laugh and giggle at the things and I laugh along but actually I beat myself on the inside cause I feel stupid.
- I feel literially STUPID AS FUCK every single day of my life.
- I think way to hard and way to deeply into things that dont even need to be thought about.
- If I get screwed over by a girl I go into a shell or become a complete asshole to everyone even though they only try to help.
- I work so hard at both my jobs just to be screwed over again and again in hours and pay.
- I use to be able to walk up to random people and start a conversation with them and gain friends easily. Lost that ability
- I dream to much I need to come to Reality..
- I have 2 of the greatest parents in the world that are so proud of me and love me cause I tell them Im doing good but actually Im doing horrible and havent done one thing to make them proud.
These are only a couple of the things that Ive realized today. But I do know one thing bout myself.. I am a hardworker and very determined I know one day I will go down the list and be able to say ” I used to be that guy” and rise above where I stand today.
